The time has come.........................

So Ive been participating in Bodyattack again for about 7 weeks now and team teaching Bodyattack for the last 3 weeks to ease back in.
Tonight I go solo again after a few years off from teaching Bodyattack due to having babies.


OMG! I can't wait........... but in the same breath I'm a little nervous and scared, its tough teaching the whole lot. I taught 8 of the 12 last week which included both peak tracks, I suppose when there's no-one on stage with me to buddy with it will happen......whats four extra tracks anyway!!?

BRING IT!!!!!!! See ya on the other side :)

Missions accomplished, stats so far and my boys.

So I have updated my missions for the year, adding a few more to the mix and having a look at what I have achieved so far since I planned the year, June to December.

I have completed some of my August missions but wont be crossing off until month is done.

Added in is the Half marathon training, I plan to run a Half marathon on November 5th, so with a solid bit of pavement pounding behind me now and quite a bit of weight released I will commence specific training for that this week. I can't wait, its been on my to-do list for years, as has a full marathon but I'll get the half done first me thinks :)

So my stats so far are still great, kilos are releasing consistently and my CM's and skinfolds are dropping to.

Total loss so far 19.5kg

12WC loss so far - @ 10 weeks completed 17.2kg

Hips - 17cm lost so far

Waist (Smallest)- 20.5cm lost so far

Waist (At Belly button) - 26cm so far

Fitness stats - on day one of my 12WC I tried to go for a 'run', which now looking back would have looked bloody hilarious! anyway.....This is the honest truth and at the time I was devastated, but I started out with the intention of jogging 1km, 1km, yep that's all, but, it had been a while, I had just had my 3rd and 4th bubs back to back and not only was I carrying extra weight it wasn't used to moving alot during the last bub.

So wanting to be realistic I thought 1km was doable, so off I set down the road.......I made it 0.2km !!! and I had to walk and pretty much I walked the rest, I was bright red in the face and ashamed at how out of condition I was.

So fast forward to now, 10 weeks later and I ran for 9km this morning.

My KM's per minute have dropped heaps, my heart rate is heaps lower as an average and I really have to push to get it high.

I have done my jogs/runs in all weather (and we have had some bad weather the last month or so) and I absolutely LOVE it.

At week 4 I went back to participating in classes, Bodystep first, then Bodyattack in week 6, seriously I thought I was going to die and had a major panic that I was supposed to be teaching in week 9, but with some hard work and focus (which wasn't a chore and I enjoyed it) I made it to team teaching for the last 2 weeks and will teach alone this week coming.

Teaching is way different to participating, you work WAY harder than your participants, this I can guarantee and its still a struggle to get through the class with good technique and enough energy and motivation for everyone but I will get there sooner rather than later.

I have 2 weeks left of my 12WC and will need to continue to work towards my goals for maybe another 3-4 weeks after that, then I move into unfamiliar territory in that previously I hit a goal and then it all goes pear shape (literally), but due to some extremely important motivating factors (i.e my kids, Paul, living life), some thought pattern changes I have made and regular fitness pursuits it will be a territory I will enjoy being in .

I have enjoyed the process of releasing it this time, no internal fight, no mind games, it feels as if its just meant to be the time for me to do it or maybe accepting where I was and taking responsibility for it was the change this time, whichever its all good, I am fitter and mentally clearer and that in itself helps me cope with the demands of having 4 kids, a husband, a house to run and being a Group Fitness Instructor.

Oh I forgot to mention, Ive decided to go back to work part time and have been successful in gaining a position as a Group Fitness Manager again :) its only 5 hours a week initially but that works for us and I get to do all the things I love.

Anyway, Ive rambled on enough, ill leave you with a picture of my youngest 2 babies having a bit of brotherly love under the baby gym.............

Catch up and making the change......take responsibilty

Wow, this year is just flying by!! Really I can't believe we are mid august, anyone else think the older you get the quicker it all seems to go??

So I thought it about time I got on and did an update, that’s if anyone is out there still reading....its been that long between posts!

KIDLETS
All are good. Big boy will be 16 in Feb and I freak myself out every time I think about that, so I try not too :) He;s having a great season of footy.

Princess is going to be 8 in a few months. Her gymnastic comp season starts this weekend. They had their control test last weekend (have to be tested on all moves/routine components to see if they will make the level entered into)for this weekends comp. Will be really interesting to see what a year of training 4 x a week for 3 1/2 - 4 hours at a time does, bless her she works hard week in week out and is very dedicated, the Institute of sport expect quite alot from them at such a young age, BUT she never moans, says she doesn't want to go etc so while she wants to go then we support her, she does say she will make the Olympics, so watch this space ;)

Freddy is coming up to 18 months this month, can't believe it. He is at the real cutey age, love it.

Archie will be 5 months this month and just adores Freddy, watches him run about, play etc and Freddy was even making him giggle a few weeks back.

ME
Im doing ok and returned to teaching Bodyattack last week, 4 months 1 week after having my fourth baby, I’m very proud of myself for achieving this and getting back to doing something I love.
Im coming to the end of week 9 of the 12 week challenge I set myself, so a few more weeks left to hit the fitness and weight loss targets I set myself and then continue on with both the fitness goals and the releasing the weight goals then into maintenance which is something I have yet to learn about.

I have continually yo-yo'd my whole life, whether it be by 5kg or 40kg and Im really looking forward to allowing my body to just settle, nourish my body by eating good food, eating everything in moderation and just being.

I must say it has been a relatively easy process this time. The weight is just releasing from my body and I have had no inner turmoil regarding what I can and cant eat, no fighting it.
I feel the difference this time, as I have said in a previous post, is that I accepted where I was at, took responsibility and moved on.
If you don’t truly accept where your at right in that moment you can’t take responsibility for where you are and where your going.

I stood quite a few times in front of a full length mirror, accepted that my body was holding excess fat, that my fitness was non-existent, that I was tired and poisoning myself daily. It was painful and embarrassing that I had allowed my physical form to get this way, but that is all it is, my physical form and I had the power to change this.

So I took responsibility for it, no-one else had made me stop being active or stop exercising, certain factors contributed to it but still I made the decision not to be active.
No-one else had force fed me excess, processed food, each and every time I ate I had the choice.
It was time to lose the excuses and front up, take responsibility for how I got to this place. This was hard for me, admitting that I had done this to myself was hard but until I had done this I couldn’t move forward and learn from it this time as Im never going back to not only the physical discomfort but the mental pain and turmoil that came with it.

Then came the moving on!!! :)
In the beginning it was freaking hard, daily I would catch myself in the mirror and start the negative self talk or walk to school and have to ask Maddi not to chat to me whilst we were walking up hill as I was so out of breath.
BUT day by day this happened less and if it did occur I focussed on replacing the negative with a positive.
A lot of the time my positive was ‘I have accepted, taken responsibility and now I’m making the change’ OR ‘your doing your best given your circumstances’ (a 6 week old bub and a 14 month old plus 2 bigger ones makes for interesting juggling when your trying to find time to do something for yourself!)

Next post will be more about what I have done to get to this point and the results I have seen so far as I have had a few e mails asking me what I have been doing, but I will say in advance, it aint rocket science, just hard work, trusting yourself and the belief that I am creating a WES (Wonderful Evolved/Evolving Shar – THANKS Katie).

Have a great weekend people!


BELIEVE
Believe in your heart that something wonderful is about to happen.
Love your life.
Believe in your own powers, and your own potential, and in your own innate goodness.
Wake every morning with the awe of just being alive.
Discover each day the magnificent, awesome beauty in the world.
Explore and embrace life in yourself and in everyone you see each day.
Reach within to find your own specialness.
Amaze yourself and rouse those around you to the potential of each new day.
Don't be afraid to admit that you are less than perfect; this is the essence of your humanity.
Let those who love you help you.
Trust enough to be able to take.
Look with hope to the horizon of today, for today is all we truly have.
Live this day well.
Let a little sun out as well as in.
Create your own rainbows.
Be open to all your possibilities; all possibilities and Miracles.
Always believe in Miracles.