I'm a mum of 4. This is my journey through motherhood after adding 2 babies in 2 years to our already gorgeous family. Join me as I cope with 4 kids, a husband, running a house and juggle everything that life is as a mum.
We are pleased to announce bubs arrived safe and sound Sunday 27th March at 3.32pm. Another quick delivery and both bubs and I are doing great. He weighed 3.2kg '/ 7lb 1oz, is feeding well and of course sleeping alot as newborns do. He hasn't got a name yet but we are slowly getting there by process of elimination. Pics to come :)
Due to a few reasons, which I am not going into, I have decided to take a break from my blogging for a bit, not sure how long but have to assess why I blog and more so why I read other blogs and what I get from them.
I might drop back in and announce new bubs arrival in the next few weeks but other than that I'll see ya when I see ya.
So a big thanks to those that came and told me what they thought, so many valid points that stood out -
1) Michelle, Hilds - yep keeping up 2 blogs is not really doable especially as I want to become a bit more consistent in blogging so I can have a full record of my year of change :)
2) Shelley, Liz - I have come to the conclusion that yes I can write what I want and honesty is the best policy, so writing from the heart it is and as Shelley put it - if people don't want to read about a certain thing they can 'bugger off' :)
3) Nicole, Magda- public versus private - I hear whet your saying Magda but not having work colleagues or family (only my mum who knows me inside out anyway) reading makes it a little easier to stay public I think and Nicole, good point,yes I know I have to risk the 2 cents worth crew coming along but decided I'm a big girl now and should be able to ignore or deal with so public it stays, I also think its nicer for readers not to have to sign in all the time?
Barbera and Maryanne, thank you for your support and I would love to you continue to follow.
Ive got a feeling its going to be a bumpy ride this year, along with 4 kids, 2 under 13 months!! I have to deal with hormones post pregnancy, probable sleep deprivation, the huge desire to get my body back to a healthy state with not alot of time for exercise, 2 older kids to be mum too, be a wife and try somewhere in there to find me and time for me. BUT 2011 will be my year and as stated in another post this blog will now be about, weight loss after 2 babies, fitness goals I have, finding a way back to doing what I love - teaching Bodyattack, alongside those things all the emotions, feelings and thoughts that go with it.
I will be using a phrase I learnt from my little girl a few years ago when she was 5/6 going on 21, I might even get the t-shirt :) To my negative self....... negative thought patterns............. 'YOUR NOT THE BOSS OF ME' this year and onwards, I'm the boss, I make the choice.
Ok, so 2011 is going to be my year. I have lots of little goals I want to achieve both personally, in health and fitness and professionally. All of these alongside being a mum for the 4th time.
I was going to start a new blog where I would blog about only health, fitness, weight loss goals and the whole journey about really trying to get my head right surrounding this. Then keep my mumsie stuff, day to day stuff here on mum on a mission.
But I'm wondering, isn't what I'm embarking on this year my day to day stuff? It will be what I do each day, how I cope with everything I'm planning etc that will be the journey.
I was tempted by the 'new blog' as I was going to make it private as I really want to let loose, be brutally honest, allow people to follow a Real journey, can I do this on here, am I willing to let it out and not know who's reading?
So here I am, what to do -
A) Have 2 blogs and invite to the 2nd one.
B) keep it on here, go for it and be open to who may be reading
C) have 2 open blogs but it will allow me to keep it separate, not everyone want to hear about weight loss etc
so drop me a comment and let me know what you would prefer to read and how.
...........So double check she did and indeed there are two things that needed attention and further checking. 1) I have borderline too much fluid, I have been told that better to have too much than not enough and that bubs is not affected by this but I haven’t been told what implications this has, I have done a few searches but will follow this one up on Wednesday. 2) I have a raised SD ratio, this is the Systolic/diastolic pressure from placenta to bubs (from how they have explained it to me) and I have a resistance of the flow between placenta to bubs, this is the more concerning one of the two so this will be monitored at a scan once a week from now on.
so from the above being found I then had to have the placenta checked and had to have an internal scan to do so. The good news here is that the placenta has moved well away from the cervix so I can have the vaginal birth I want!! I then find myself being referred up to the Maternal Fetal Assessment Unit (MFAU) for monitoring. Sit on the monitor for an hour or so and its not the reactive trace they are after, they give me a sandwich and cold water and then bubs starts to play !! J All good, sent home with a scan booked for a week and a half time along with monitoring.
Tuesday morning comes and after restless night up and down with ‘period pain’ and backache I do the morning stuff, school run etc and get back, pop Freddy down for his morning nap and go to the toilet only to find in bleeding!? So I can’t get Paul, sit and stare at the wall for a bit, wonder what to do and decide given the circumstances – 34 weeks pregnant, a few probs discovered yesterday and bleeding not being normal unless maybe in going to go into labour, I decide to ring the hospital. Of course, told to go in, Paul comes home and drops me to the hospital (its so hard this time, Paul cant be with me for most of the appts at the hospital now as children under 7 aren’t allowed to attend with you) to go to be checked.
They pop me on the monitor again, bubs is ok, but I'm contracting every 5 mins, I can only feel tightening's but the doctor assures me they class as contractions. Cervix check – closed and high, good sign. Bloods taken and scan done to check bubs is head down as I couldn’t remember from the scan the day before.
Just as I think I'm good to be told to go home and rest as Ive had no more bleeding, in come the doctor and tells me they will be admitting me as a small bleed can preceed a big bleed or labour and given I'm contracting and how fast Freddy came I am better to be at the hospital as bubs is classes as pre term.
Totally not prepared for that and then get all emotional cause I'm on my own, worried about bubs and cant not be at home I have 3 kids to look after! Anyway so we don’t go into a part three, the contractions stopped that evening, the bleeding stopped and all was looking good.
But they kept me in until Thursday!! Still worried about the big bleed that may come and wanting me to rest. They wanted me to continue to stay but I managed to strike a deal! J They agreed on Thursday morning that if I had a good reactive trace of bubs I could go home as long as I rest and go straight back if I got tightening's, bleeding or reduced movements. There was no way I wanted to stay another night and wake up on Freddy’s first birthday in hospital!
So I am now on 2 x weekly ctg monitoring and 1 x week scans to check the placenta and fluid. I went Sunday and got a good trace, so on Wednesday I have monitoring, scan then clinic.
I have lost my birth centre birth as you can’t have any risks which I do now, but having stayed in the ante Natal ward which is also the postnatal ward and will be the same middies I am feeling more positive about being in the main hospital. I can have my vaginal birth, can still do it drug free and be discharge all being well from 6 hours after so really all that has changed are the location and middies……its all good as long as bubs is ok and we are looked after.
Paul did an amazing job whilst I was missing for 3 days and two nights! We had no planning, he had to pack a bag for me, pick up on Freddy’s routine (communicated via text) and he even did Maddi’s hair in a ponytail for school!! I missed them all soooo much and as tough as it is being a mum and everything that comes with it, I wouldn’t change it, it’s the hardest job in the world but the most satisfying.
I am a little worried about the placenta but will know more after my appointments on Wednesday and I think worse case I will have to have more monitoring and maybe have him earlier than due date.