Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Struggling today.........

Gotta tap into that belief,
gotta stay focused,
gotta just suck it up and turn up my sleeves!

Shar x

Saturday, April 26, 2008

Revisiting, Believing and Growing

Since the ALL Females Comp last year I have had some (lots!!) 'moments', I went back to my old blog and found this post, it is again relevant to my journey since comp.

The reason I'm posting it?.......to acknowledge that I have again repeated revisited some bad habits, employed some destructive behaviours... BUT, I again have emerged the other side, this time, in the words of Lia - I have different tools in my toolbox.

I have a definite plan in place for after comp this time.
I am totally aiming and heading for a lifestyle of health and happiness as a pose to aiming for one goal, one date, one moment all the time. There will be goals but long term as well as short term.
I am using the information that has become clear through my NLP and Mind coaching sessions to assist me in changing my beliefs and behaviours, therefore not travelling the path I have done before over and over.
After all...........
The definition of insanity:
Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results

Albert Einstein, (attributed)US (German-born) physicist (1879 - 1955)

' - there are days I questioned whether I should should give it all up and stay overweight,
- there were days I just 'couldn't be bothered',
- there were days I got mad with how society could judge 'fat' people and just wanted everyone to be fat,
- there were days I would catch people judge me for how I looked (I was 10kg overweight but my profession does not sympathise whatever the amount)
- there were days 'I didn't believe I could'
- there were days I felt like the crappiest mum because I was so consumed by me and how I felt
There were numerous other feelings, too many to list.
I spent all year 'fighting' until i made a decision, same as all the other decisions this year, to eat clean, exercise and finally put all the demons to rest, but, the difference this time was.....
I HAD TO TRULY BELIEVE I COULD DO IT , nothing can take your belief away, not a single person, not a piece of food, you have to believe that you can reach your end goals, if something sways you, the belief has to be there to get you back on track, if something 'ruins' your plan for the week, you have to have the belief that this won't ruin the rest of the week, you have to believe you are in control.'

I believe in me, I believe I am worthy, I am not doing this for anyone but myself this time, I'm not trying to prove anything, I am so over trying to please people that aren't important to me, I will not feel small and unworthy.
I feel truly proud of what I have achieved in the last 3 weeks, I am also proud that the path I have travelled has taught me alot and as long as I use the information wisely I will continue to grow.

Thanks for listening.
Shar x

PS - Weekly update on right :)

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Always moving forward

Where have you come from?
What have you learnt?
Where are you going?
I have done alot of work in my Mind Coaching / NLP sessions on the above.
I still have to check in with these on a regular basis.
Having answers / insight to the above questions has taught me alot about why I feel the way I do sometimes, why I react the way I do to different people and certain situations but most importantly, where I'm heading with this information and how I am using it to move forward and enrich mine and my families future.
Shar x

Sunday, April 20, 2008

13 Weeks Out down to 12 Weeks Out

Where did the week go? I have had a great week:
  • Bryce played footy, scored two goals and got man of the match :)
  • Kids are on Holidays,
  • Changed my GFM position hours to suit me better and that has made a big difference,
  • Spent time with Paul,
  • Taught some great classes,
  • Trained hard,
  • Cardio'd well,
  • Ate 100% to plan,
  • Lowered stats.

So a great week and here's to another.

Did skinfolds, measurements, weight and pictures today. Losses all round again, not a good as the first week but that's to be expected.

Days 8 -14 of 98

Training - Taught 5 Bodyattacks, 2 Bodyvives and 2 Bodybalances, 3 Weights, 1 RPM and other additional cardio sessions

Nutrition - Food and water eaten as prescribed.

Results - Weight Lost - 0.7kg
Skinfold Lost - 8mm
CM's Lost - 6cm

My weekly results are on the right now, followed by my Totals So Far.

I am severely bloaty and fluidy due to TTOM approaching fast, so can't wait to get rid of that and perhaps See another great week next week. Spoke with Di on the phone this evening, great to talk to her and get a very positive vibe down the line.

Have to get to bed as I need my energy for my Sunday morning Bodyattack, I love this class and give everything I have.

Will try and post more this week. Shar x

Monday, April 14, 2008

14 Weeks Out down to 13 Weeks Out

Thought I better update as if I'm not careful the weekend Will be back around again.

So how did my first week of prep go?
Very well. 100% with food and training and some great results at the end of the week.

Days 1-7 of 98

Taught 4 Bodyattacks,
2 Bodyvives and 2 Bodybalances
3 Weights sessions
2 RPM and other additional cardio sessions

Food and water eaten as prescribed.

Drop in Skinfolds - 25mm
Drop on Scales - 3.5kg
Drop in measurements - 24.

So as you can see massive drops, bound to happen in my first week and more to shift this time as i'm starting up on all measurements, skinfolds and weight.

But all good and I will be there in July looking better than last year.

I had a few mind games at the weekend but soon got over them.
I now have an understanding from my NLP / Mind coaching sessions where alot of my reasoning for relating to food and my emotions comes from and alot of my self worth issues and doubt come from.
Now I just think I am worth way more than mindlessly stuffing food down me.
It helps to think slowly and surely through these feelings, they are bound to resurface as they have been with me a long time, totally unaware of some of them but so relevant.
Its all clear now and I am able to work through it all.

Now that's the mind games, CRAVINGS are a totally different ball game!! :0
I made my boy lunch on Sunday, he had peanut butter!!!!!!! I think maybe this is my favourite food??? the smell, the texture of spreading it etc was so hard, just wanted to put a spoon in the tub! Downed some water, made myself busy and all was well.

Anyway, rambling on now, have a great week if I don't get back before Saturday with my next lot of results.

Shar x

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Day 5 of 98

Hey all
Just a quick one to update my week so far.

Been busy with work and just getting settled into my new training and nutrition.

I am really 'enjoying' it!!! What's up with that!? try and do it myself, fight and play mind games all day everyday, get told what to do, no probs 100% on plan, track etc. Oh well we live and learn.

Will do a weekly round up on Saturday.

I have a rest day tomorrow! OMG, what the hell am I going to do? its been a long time since I have not done anything at all, Thursdays I don't teach but would always engage in some form of exercise. Perhaps I will enjoy it?

I hope everyone else is trucking along nicely.
See you Saturday, Shar x

Friday, April 4, 2008

I promise to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth.....

Wow that's a long title!! :)

OK, no bullshit, no fluffy stuff, no excuses, just here it is straight down the line.

16 weeks out - 15 weeks out - as posted 100%, great results, all good.

15 weeks out - 14 weeks out - CRAP, well not all crap.

I am not expecting any loss this week across any of the 3 measures I use.
I injured myself last Friday, off to doctors on Saturday, told to take week off, yeah like that's gonna happen.
Took Saturday, Sunday and Monday off, no choice I had too, too sore to exercise, back to it on Tuesday until today.
This pissed me, I'm an all or nothing which is what I have been trying to work on both myself, with Liz previously and with my Life coaching / NLP.
Pleased to say I didn't blow out totally but I did fall of the wagon on the weekend, yes, after I had pulled a week of amazing results!!

Although I feel I could, I have decided I will not prep myself, I could make it but it would be a testing time, with lots of fighting etc. I figure why would I make an already demanding period worse for myself, so I have enlisted some help.

I will hopefully be contributing to the success of FABULOUS FIGURES, with Di prepping me for the ALL FEMALES. Di has a clear idea of how she wants me to come in, so I can step on stage having improved on last year and that is what its all about.

I have spent the past week e mailing back and forth LOTS of info so Di can compile my cardio and nutrition plans (hubby still in charge of the muscle side!!) and I received my schedule yesterday, I was like a kid in a candy shop!! (same as Rae gets when she gets her new programmes!!)

If only I had made this decision a few weeks ago I would be well on my way by now.
Anyway, can't look back.

I am so ready to hit this hard, I feel like I just have to 'do' now, I don't have to 'think and do'!!
I gave 100% last year when accountable, not once did I stray from what was being asked of me, so know I can this year. I just have to focus afterwards on learning to be accountable to myself and finding the balance.

So my time with Di starts tomorrow - 14 weeks out - GAME ON!!

Have a great weekend
Shar x