Tuesday, November 3, 2009

24 Weeks and Weekly Health and Fitness Update

24 Weeks Today
What they say - Baby Stuff - He still has little body fat and his skin is thin and fragile, he's now well-proportioned. His brain is growing rapidly, and he is starting to fill the space in your uterus. From crown to heel he could measure 30 centimetres.

What I say - I am feeling great at the moment, sleeping well, with pillow for belly and leg support now though! I am easily getting up in the mornings, I an exercising regularly, eating with control from a full range of organic and free range products for health and wellness. No complaints, I love being preggers and I love baby boy growing strong, he is soooo active and there is no other feeling quite like it when he is kicking, punching etc.

Weekly Health & Fitness report - actually my health and fitness preggers so far.................

I haven't really updated in relation to my health and fitness, which is what I started this whole blogging journey was originally for (back in 2005!!!) so decided I might just throw in so updates each week alongside my preggy updates.

So as my blog is about being a mum on a mission, that I am!

I have to admit I went through a spell back in the first stages where i was sick for about 7 weeks (weeks 7 - 14) i nibbled on not so healthy food to find my way out of sickness as nothing seemed to help, I couldn't face sitting up without the nausea getting worse, let alone exercising and basically got a bit down on myself mentally. A 'few' :) excess kilos crept on and I definitely laid down those fat stores early on, not good, I'm all for the body doing what its gotta do to support the pregnancy but excess is just that and not required.

Then the belly growth sprouted, earlier in this preggers, (3rd bub and all may have something to do with it??) and I ended up not feeling so good. If i'm honest I ended up in a place where I was starting to return to binging habits, the oh well I'll do this now and deal with it later etc, when all I really deep down wanted was to just embrace pregnancy, allow my body to do all these wonderful things and sod everything else. I put alot of thought into how the past has been, what behaviours I have, what has caused them, the list is endless, but I spent a good few weeks just in thought.

I considered stepping away from Group Fitness, meaning giving up my Les Mill Presenter / Trainer position which is my dream and that I have worked bloody hard for and continue to do so, giving up all classes, leaving my GFM job sooner rather than later, all because I was blaming 'the industry' for the pressure to look good all the time. This was one of many 'solutions' I came up with to solve everything.

Of course nothing was just going to magically solve itself, I was feeling very hormonal and doing my whole 'I want this sorted now' 'all or nothing' 'I want answers' thing. I was over trying to solve 'the problem', I was over 'fighting' the same thing over and over.

Luckily my common sense and reality hit...........there is nothing to blame, there is no-one to blame, I am me, I am Shar, I have the power, strength and knowledge to live a happy, loving, wonderful, healthy life. If I do "MY' best, no-one else best, for 'ME' and my family, not for anyone else, everyday what more can you possibly want or need???? If I can lay in bed each night in the knowledge I have taken good care of me and my family, both mentally and physically what more could i possibly do.

This is just another journey, a very special one, one that cannot be taken for granted, not enjoyed, not nurtured.

I'm happy to say that as though a switch was flicked I have been living exactly that way ever since, doing what I can each day, making the most of what I have, the most of what I can bring to me and my family each day, enjoying my classes, exercising for health, eating for wellness and healing.

It has been a good couple of months now, consistency in both mind and the physical have me sat in a great place. It feels so cool, it feels right and feels like this is what I have been searching for for quite some time. Don't get me wrong I still have days where I have to work extra hard, where my energy is stretch, to be able keep the mind on an even keel, to feel great about me, to give all I can give to my family, but I'm damn sure I'd rather be doing that than killing myself with self criticism, self doubt and abusing my body with negative emotion and dead food.

I have found a way that works for me. I couldn't have done it without my rock, Paul. My beautiful children, that I only have to think about and my soul is nourished and at peace...... and of course just feel a kick from the 3rd precious gift I am looking after right now.

So from a quick update on bubs and my weekly Health and Fitness to a long post about other stuff!!! I'll have to come back later and update the week that was as we have school to get to!!!!

Thanks for listening, have the best day 'YOU' can have!! Shar x


LizN said...

What an awesome post Shar, and what a wonderful attitude you have. We put so much pressure (needlessly!) on ourselves, especially in the GF role.
I had a lady in the pharmacy yesterday who just had a baby and wanted Optislim. I had to sit her down and tell her the process of getting back to normal after pregnancy was highly individual and that she was beautiful and her baby was beautiful and not to feel so pressured.

I should have told her to come and read your blog!

fittingbackin said...

What an empowering post, girl!! Your positive attitude is just awesome - keep it up! Sounds like you have a great little family/support system!!

Frankie said...

aw Shar you sound so 'at peace in the moment'. I love it..and bubs will benefit from it too xxx