Day 2 of 75

Nutrition - All good, Logged in CK, Totals a little better today especially protein, Holding at 1400 cals for 4 days then will add in a higher day.
1396 Calories / 35% from fat / 42% from protein / 24% from carbs

Exercise – Taught Bodyvive in morning and Bodyattack this evening

Mind Medicine – Having a few issues with pre-period brain, feeling really tired and crappy, found a few negative thoughts creeping in. I have to do some serious research on how to make the mental side of being pre-menstrual a manageable process. If anyone has any tips, remedies, etc please leave me a comment or e mail me.

Relaxation/Recovery – did the walk to school and walk home with Maddison again today.

DAYMAKER - The Daymaker today was definitely Maddi's face when she saw Paul and I picking her up and telling her we were all walking home together. Paul took Bryce and his friend to the beach after school to go bodyboarding so that was Bryce's day made.

Night, Shar x

Day 1 of 75

Thanks Fern, frankie and Truds for your comments, it appears I'm not alone in what I wrote in my epic post yesterday.

Fern - I will e mail you hopefully tomorrow.

Frankie - yes I will do it!

Truds - Yes trying to be very mindful not to do what I've always done in the past to get results because at the end of the day it clearly isn't working if i'm back in a similair spot every time, all be it not so much of a weight gain this time.

At the end of the day I am the perfect definaition of insanity...........

DOING THE SAME THING OVER AND OVER AND EXPECTING DIFFERENT RESULTS............ I'm taking the same approach over and over and thinking each time my mindset will magically change, my thought patterns and behaviours will change, I can get the body looking great again and the mind will be healed............Ehhh HELLLLOOOO, anyone

home? CLEARLY NOT :)

DAY

Nutrition - All good, Logged in CK, here's my totals, very aware the fat is too high and protien too low.

I was craving nuts today so I had 2 serves of nuts, this was enough to satisfy me and stop me wanting other shite, so if my fats on the high side then fair enough, all good fats too. Protien being too low was purely my lack of planning for the day. Lesson learnt food planned for tomorrow.

1387 calories / 46% of the calories are from fat / 25% from protein / 29% from carbs

Exercise - 30 minute incline powerwalk. Shit it was hard this morning to get on the treadmill and only walk but its all part of the new approach.

Mind Medicine - My goal today was to stay positive today. Check!

Relaxation/Recovery - I had a 30 minute sit on the couch before picking the kids up. Also my little one has been asking to walk to or from school, so today as a surprise as it wasn't my night to go teach I got paul to drop me at the school and surprised her when she came out. This was very relaxing and rewarding. DAYMAKER achieved today :)

Must go sleep, this is a major thing for me to get to a consistent place, for mind and body.

Night x

2009 so far........and whats next?

Thanks for the comments girls, great to see that you agree, this is my blog and a place for me to record, rant, rave, ask for help, travel and learn, so that is what I intend on doing all in real and honest way.

Moving on …………2009 Update – Health and Fitness
January saw me heavy, bloaty and out of shape.
I was still see-sawing from my 2nd comp in July 2008. The initial bloat and gain after comp was a pretty reasonable amount on the scales but what I saw or how I perceived my mirror image was telling me otherwise.

So I spent Aug – Dec 08 doing the ‘make a food plan’ ‘exercise like a nutter’ cycle, which totally does not work for me, I feel restricted, angry and uncontrollable.
Then came Jan 09, time to ‘try again’.
This time though, I made a little headway, OK so I exercised like a nutter but I seemed to mend the nutrition side of things.
I started to log in calorie king, setting myself a calorie limit that was sensible, eating a range of ‘normal’ foods and kept this consistent for more than 12 weeks, a good amount of time to make changes on the scale and to my body shape.

I was starting to receive comments from my class members; clothes I hadn’t seen for a while were emerging to be my friend again.

After another 2 weeks the results then started to slow and even stopped, indicating I was over training and not eating enough calories, so, I upped my calories and pulled back on the exercise………… down went the scales!!

Then a classic Shar moment, a freakin idiotic mindset, a you’ve worked hard you deserve it moment.
A two week holiday, no exercise (Ok not NO exercise, but a lot less than normal) and calories in excess, no logging, no good food, allowing others very poor choices be influence me.
WTF??????????? Come on Shar, you really aren’t that stupid, you know what works and what doesn’t, you are riding the same merry go round over and over and it really ain’t that merry, so why the hell don’t you get the fu*k off!!!!!!!!!!!!

So here I am still sitting on the waltzer, a few kilos back on, actually not a few…. freakin 4 kilos!!, feeling like a puffer fish, feelings from my past resurfacing, no self worth due to the ‘ you always ruin everything’ mindset and feeling disappointed in myself, that I had found something that worked but yet I let old habits creep back in.

BUT…..in trying to harness my focus of always looking for a positive here are some points I need to remember…………

1) I have found a new way of eating that works for me, its balanced, not restricted and that I did find easy to stick to. Calories in, Calories out.
2) I was consistent for 14 weeks, longer than I have managed even longer than a comp prep.
3) For a short time there I felt in control again and I am more determined to get the control back.
4) I have learnt that I need to remain true to myself when around others.

So moving forward, what would be worse than any of the above would be that I do not kick myself up the arse and get back to it.

I have just stated that logging my food intake worked for me, gave me control, so that is what is to be done on that front.
Exercise wise I am really trying to remove past beliefs and take on board what my gorgeous husband it telling me and embrace a change.

I am so cool with my decision to resign from my GFM position, it was really causing me some stress and it is a decision I have been fighting with for 4 months.
It now allows me more time, less stress, I get to help Paul with the business and do what I love…………teach my classes

I am going to embrace this time for change and see what the hell I can do with the rest of 2009!!!

As usual I feel I need a goal, I do one day hope that I can make the goals smaller or further between so that I end up re-educating myself just to do this because I want a great lifestyle.
Yes, those that are living that perfect lifestyle will think that also, but you know what, everything I have written above proves I’m not perfect and am far from it right now, so I will do what I need to do now and know that every time I try something I learn a little more to add to what I learnt before.

So what’s the goal??

Well I have to fess up, 10 days ago I started a 12 week challenge. 4 days ago I pressed pause!!!
Yep you heard it, I managed 6 days, well actually I haven’t actually stopped I just have let the mindset of ‘I’ve failed’ creep in cause I had a few extra ‘treats’ and yes some were today for Mothers day, which if I had been properly logging, that I know works for me, I could have worked in!!!
Anyway I am determined to continue and reign my focus back in but I have to change something.
So now my goal has changed from going hard for 12 weeks to taking a mind and body challenge, doing things and being open to trying things I have never tried before.
I will re-shape my body by way of a consistent training programme.
I will re-shape my mind by working through NLP protocols, looking back at past behaviors, researching meditation / relaxation techniques, taking a positive approach to myself and my body image.

So I have 74 days left (from Monday), I will set myself weekly goals for both training and re-shaping my mind.
Obviously, if I make it that far, I have to have made enough mental changes to realize it is not a stopping point, it is purely a time to assess what I have achieved and continue the good work and if needed set another focus.

So lets see bloggers, can Shar make some changes that will carry over or will it be same old same old, will she still be on the (not so) merry go round??

Changes

Didn't realize it had been that long since my last post.

Anyway, saturday morning, good time for a quick update.
Have finally gotten my head straight and worked through a few issues I
was having personally with giving up my Group Fitness Managers job that I have been doing for 3 years, and have handed in my notice, I finish in 3 weeks.
Although I got quite stress and uptight about the whole decision, now I have made the decision, it feels fantastic and I am excited about what my path will bring now.
To start with I will just concentrate on my classes still and also get into helping Paul with our own business, then I'm sure I will find my direction.

Anyway onto other stuff........... I Always said I was going to be honest and upfront on this blog, whether thats my opinion on something or how I am feeling /doing with certain things.

I think that instead of being honest sometimes I have chosen not to post instead, worrting about peoples thoughts and juedgement.
So from now on this my place to say what I want and record what I want.
Of course it is my Health and Fitness based blog so in general it will be followiung that ongoing journey of mine!!
Taking a leaf out of Rene's and Lia's book, If people make judgement or don't like what I'm saying they don't have to read.
Now I feel I have made a change out of a job that I had to be something I wasn't, I'm damn sure not being Fake here.

Anyways, must check through the tracks I have chosen for Bodyattack for this morning, get Kids up (bryce is still sleeping) and ready to go 'shopping' with dad for some special day thats tomorrow :)

Have set myself a new target now I am feeling all free and focused!! how long that lasts I don't know :) but will probably post later with an update.

Have a good weekend, Shar x

WOWZA!!!

I recieve a daily e mail and today's blew me away....... you know when something just hits you at the right time............

What are your priorities today?
"Most people are so busy knocking themselves out trying to do everything they think they should do, they never get around to do what they want to do."
-- Kathleen Winsor

When we clearly set an intention, our conscious and subconscious minds mobilize to help us meet that intention.
At the start of each day, thoroughly review what commitments you have made to others for the day, and decide what commitment(s) you will make for yourself.
What can you do today that will move you one step closer to your personal goals?
Own your power to choose to meet your own needs.
After all, we are much better able to help others when our own needs are met.
And at the end of the day, when you've honoured your commitment to yourself, acknowledge your success.

"If you want to make good use of your time, you've got to know what's most important and then give it all you've got." -- Lee Iacocca

Time to take notice, me thinks.
I know what needs to happen to allow me to be true to myself and my family.
Time for me.........this in turn benefits them.

Shar x

Looking within...

Taking the opportunity from it being a Public Holiday here in WA to do a post!!

Been doing a bit of looking within.

This has prompted alot of analyzing of what it is I want from life, life being the things that make up my life.

One of the things that makes up my day to day life is work.

As most of you know I absolutely LOVE teaching my Group Fitness Classes but with regards to other work areas I have decided I need to be true to myself and make some changes.

I am lucky enough to be in an industry I love and have been since I left high school in the UK, so I have always been of the opinion that whatever I do I want it to enhance my life not hinder or disrupt my life in a negative manner.

Time for change is coming and this is hopefully leading to exciting times for Paul and I.

I am so lucky to have Paul in my life, always supportive, never judges me or my endeavours, shares the same dreams, loves unconditionally.

Paul doing a handstand

(Did I mention he still acts like a kid which is soooo much fun, especially

when i still act like I'm 13!!)

Shar x

Annual Leave - Over :(

I have had the bestest 2 weeks off from my GFM job, spending time with Paul and the Kids, (along with the in-laws visiting from the UK).

But now its over and I'm back to it tomorrow. I'm feeling a bit over it and not really pumped to go back and do my GFM role, unlike me but hey perhaps my priorities are changing?

I have a few fav pics so will blog them over the week coming now I am planning on being back to blogging regularly. A few of me Favourite favorites!!........

Me and my bestest boy!!!

(taking our own pics!!)

didn't realize my wrinkles

were that bad!

Me and my girl in the pool.

Yes, being in Maddi's inflatable

ring was a tight sqeeze :)

Me, my precious things

and a wonderful sunset.

Have tried to catch up on a few blogs and will continue to do so over the next few days

now I'm getting back to my normal routine.

Shar x

Weekly Going Ons......

Firstly - Love and all my thoughts to Sam. I feel bad blogging about my day to day stuff when Sam and her family are going through this time.

Well, its Saturday again and it seems my time where I get 10 mins to sit and chill before Paul gets back and I have to get ready to go teach.

I have had quite a challenging week on the energy & focus front due to the fantastic TOTM.I get VERY tired the 2-3 days before, like literally I could fall asleep 1 hour after getting up and anywhere. I also get very low on patience sort have to 'grit my teeth' to stop myself just flying of the handle!! Anyone else get like this?

As soon as period hits I feel better with the tiredness and patience thing but then crap physically with aches, pains and heavy bleeding. These only last one day though so that's one thing to be thankful for.

Over the last few weeks my Les Mills journey has gotten a little clearer and I have a clearer Path of where I'm heading with regards to my two programmes.

I also got to work with Kylie Gates - Training Director of Les Mill Asia Pacific and International Master Trainer and Presenter for Les Mills. WOW, talk about gain some knowledge.

I got to do some musicality work, coaching development, went through some module delivery development, then I got to team teach with her!! for Bodyattack. OMG, I nearly crap my pants everytime. All went well and I am so excited.

I am doing the self doubt, I'm not worth it thing in my head daily, but I suppose with a lifetime of doing that in all aspects of my life I will continue to do that to myself and I am aware of it and trying so hard to correct not only the physical habits but the mental as well.

Had to re-adjust plans on the run yesterday. I set out to run 10km but when I started running, the legs felt like lead, the heart rate was up and it was 33 degrees and I was running at 12.30pm in the heat.

I soon realised I was feeling it so hard due to the heat and the amount of Bodyattacks and runs I had already done so far this week, which was 5 Bodyattacks and 2 runs, still with 2 Bodyattacks to go this weekend and possibly 1-2 runs. So I made the decision to do 5km, which my body and mind was grateful for.

Maddi is still training with WAIS (WA Institute of Sport) for Gymnastics, since she moved up a group, the extra training and length of session does seem to affect her, shes shattered. She has to officially wear the Squad leotard now, she looks so cute, we will look back at this pic when shes representing Australia in 2020!!

Bryce goes to Tennis today and has just started back to pre-season footy training.Paul ran the Beep test for the boys on Thursday night, the coach wanted to do it now and then again in 6 weeks to see some fitness improvements.

Bryce and Paul also went to an adults Gymnastic session together on Wednesday. They both did it when younger, Bryce wants to do more free running style stuff and Paul wants to perfect his back flip and learn to hold handstand on one hand!! They had great fun and both pulled up sore on Thursday.

Anyway, Pauls home, I have to leave in 25 minutes to go teach Bodyattack !!! YEEEAAAHHH!!

So in the Bodyattack essence I'll leave you with another cool poster......

Have a great Weeeknd

Shar x

Stats, Headspace and Goals

I have been wanting to do a check in for a while but haven't really had time.
Saturday's are a great day for me, so I thought I would use my bit of chill time to update.
Paul goes to do 1 client at 7am so generally I'm up at 6.30 - 6.40am, I normally just chill, have my white tea whilst on the laptop just flicking on the web, blogs etc.
Then about 7.45am I start to get the kids breakfasts ready, get Bryce up, help Mads get ready etc, Paul is back about 8am, then I can get ready properly to go to teach one of my favourite classes (I keep saying that but really all my Bodyattacks are my Favourites!!) at my own club - Subiaco, 9.30am Bodyattack.
Also this morning we set alarms a little earlier to do my skinfolds and measurements.

I have only been weighing on the scales and I haven't had skinfolds taken since my start point skinfolds when I brought some serious focus to my training and nutrition 8 weeks ago.
So eight weeks has passed, Eight weeks ago I started running training to head towards my goal of running the Perth Marathon in June, you can see the distances I have covered per week in my sidebar and taught my usual classes.
Eight weeks ago I started to log my food again, calories in, calories out, eating a protien at every meal, coming from, fish, chicken, beef, WPI if needed. Carbs generally at each meal in a small portion generally coming from carbs that are listed for my metabolic type.
I have had at least one meal per weekend that is relaxed, maybe a meal out, last weekend we had thai, one weekend we went to my fav cafe and I had pancakes, I had Bryce's Birthday in there and enjoyed some cake, I had my work trip to Sydney etc.
My stats are showing results from living my life in a balanced way, still able to indulge (and savour) in a few things I enjoy, there is not a moment I have struggled (apart from when I have PMT!!) not a moment I have beaten myself up, not a moment I have binged uncontrollably like I used to.

Skin folds - Dropped 41mm
Weight - 6.7kg loss (9kg from heaviest weight at Christmas)

I had a sticky point on the scales a few weeks back, they were just playing me, I felt tired and
was getting a little over it.
A turning point came when I had a long run scheduled - 16.09km, I had to teach in the morning so not one for excuses anymore, particularly the weather, I proceeded to run the 16.09km in the midday heat of 33 degrees!!
I made it......just and almost collapsed when I got back, Paul wondered what was going on when I walked in the back door and sprawled out on the kitchen floor!!
Anyway, that was a very tough mental run and the enjoyment factor was ZERO. At that point I decided I would not be doing the FULL marathon and would bring my focus to the HALF marathon due to the fact I want to remain in a positive place and place of enjoyment for what i do.
Also had a chat with Paul and we decided i was probably over training, what with running, classes, working etc etc.
So I had re-assess, re-tracked my training, got some more sleep and voila the scales have been playing ball ever since, I was rewarded with a kilo drop after about 4-5 days of pulling back and again this week.
My headspace is at a good place right now and it is great to be doing this just because, not because I'm competing, not because I feel I should.
If I do decide to compete it will be a real different feel coming from where i am now than previous times.
The place I want to sit all year, every year, is about 4kg above a weight/size I would like to compete at. My first comp I lost 15kg to get there and 2nd comp I had 20kg to lose!! to get there so you can see what a different experience prep would be trying to only drop 4kg!! BLISS!!!

As for my goals, I am still pursuing the Half marathon but have some other stuff going on that really excites me so if they come to the fore I may hold off on the half marathon to be able to give 110% to the other.
Talking of goals, TRUDS - if you come up with anything that needs a partner to be accountable to or something that will push us both etc give me a shout I'm always up for a extra challenge.

Anyways, this has taken way more than my chill time and I have to get ready to ATTACK!!!! YEEEEEEEEEAAAHHHHH, BRING IT!!
Have a great weekend all
Shar

PS - PERTH PEOPLE - if anyone wants to come to an Bodyattack class or Bodybalance, give me a comment and I can organise for you to come to the Subiaco club, we have 2 hours free parking available, would love to see you.

BODYATTACK ROCKS!!!!

I've been MIA for a few weeks!!! but with good cause.

I have been sooooooo busy, all good stuff and one of them being my GFM role and setting up our

open weekend that we just had.

We launched all our new release and I have to say BODYATTACK 64 might have to be my all time Fave release!!! BIG statement I know, got lots of fave individual tracks but as a whole release goes, this may be it so far!!!

I love the poster above, especially apt after plyo lunges and in particular the leg conditioning track from this release.

I have still been catching everyone else but choosing to spend my 'spare' time reading instead of blogging myself. Will do a update soon though, all good in Shar's world.

Have a great Wednesday everyone........and if you get a chance get your self to a great Bodyattack Instructor and do the new release. :)

Shar x

Loving this.....

.......Finally...........
- finally feeling like I have control,
- finally feeling not deprived,
- exercising coz I want to not coz I have to do X amount of sessions per week coz
the plan says so
- finally guilt free
- having the scales dropping, clothes fitting
- enjoying any type of food coz nothing is off limits
- working towards my goals with maximum focus but not maximum pressure
- seeing the value in logging my calories and nutrients and learning how my body responds
- being friends with the scales and understanding why they do what the do and when

Its great to have the feeling of control.
Having read so many of you ladies inspirational posts and wishing I could be where you are, now I feel like I'm heading the right way, its great to see and feel how powerful someones blog can be, even just one post can really help. So to you all, Keep blogging and THANKS!!

Have a great weekend
Shar x

Update, Excuses and the truth.

Hey all
Thought I'd drop by and do a quick update.

So last post was the evening of my Les Mills Presentation, from there I was at work and teaching for Monday and Tuesday and on Wednesday I flew to Sydney to attend the annual Fitness First Conference for all their heads of Departments.

Had a great time, got some motivation from a speaker they had on, learnt a lot about the company and where we sit in the industry, went to the gym each morning, spent time with my Group Fitness Managers, won the Group Fitness Manager of the year for WA and did a little bit of shopping! :)

Really missed Paul and the kids and was great to get back. Came back to a Long Weekend and that's has been nice, a bit of down time at home.
We went bowling yesterday with the kids and had lunch out, was nice to have some fun together.
I taught today and Paul had 3 clients but most of the day was chillin, bit of housework, had dad round for dinner, now I'm ready for an early night and ready to hit it hard again both with my training and getting back into work and my Les Mills journey.
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Excuses
I have been guiltily in the past of making excuses, I've used them all, I don't have to list them, you know them as you may have either used them too or have clients/friends that use them.
I would have spells of using them, mainly when I have been lazy and not into my training, overweight and not eating well, when tired, when busy etc.
So when things weren't quite perfect, weren't going my way I would use the excuses list or try and justify my actions.

The Truth
(this section will be truthful and may read quite blunt, so if you don't want to hear it, skip to next section)
For the past 8 weeks I have following a different approach to my nutrition, training and my mental focus.
This change came when I realised that enough was enough, there is absolutely no room for excuses in my life anymore, in any area.
When I realised the truth is, that only I got myself to the place I was at, only I was responsible for what I ate, only I was responsible if I made my training sessions each day, only I was in control of me and my day to day actions.
In relation to the place I was at with my bodyweight/bodyfat, it is simple, energy in , energy out.
In relation to my training, make the time, find a way.
In relation to my mental well being, believe, remove the negative and take each day as it comes.

I just had to shut the excuses the f#*k up and get on with it.
No-one wants to hear excuses, if you really, really want to change, you really really want different to now, then shut the hell up and get on with it.

I have consistently trained, consistently eaten well balanced diet and consistent dealt with each day as it comes.
No magic 'plans', pills, fixes...........good old hard work, correct nutrition and consistency.

Knowing i can do this, on my own, with no-one else writing me a 'plan', being accountable to myself not someone else, not 'prepping' for a comp for the wrong reason, whilst working full time, presenting for Les Mills, looking after my kids,(granted I have a fantastic husband, but if I didn't I wouldn't use it as an excuse) is a very empowering feeling and unfortunately now I really do not have a lot of patience for excuses and reasons that people cannot do this.
I don't want to hear excuses when I'm getting up at 5.30am everyday to run on my treaddie before my daughter wakes up coz paul is at work already, not finishing my last class until 7.30pm, Whatever...........Just do it.

Its not rocket science and I think sometimes we make it that way, then when it all gets too hard, the plan fails etc we have something/someone to blame.
Well quit blaming and making excuses and make the change, be responsible for yourself.

The situation I find myself in now has been a long time coming for me and I still have a journey ahead, I still have work to do but it is a great road to be travelling and I am not taking any other path.
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Moving on.......... I am still focusing on my running and thinking I will do the half marathon, will see how I travel with extra mileage as my long run gets longer, knees and hips are a little sore after my long run yesterday and I have to think about my classes that I teach as I will not jeopardise those.

My have blocked out my training and this week See's me get back into my resistance training consistently from this week, I have to build me some muscle.
Paul is in total charge of this which is very exciting to me as it will be a whole different way of training and a way I think will have me in great shape.

Having achieved the weight goal I wanted to for my QW presentation, I have my next mini goal set, I have a scale weight target as the last one was only an interim to help me get to a better place and also this time a skinfolds total.
This next phase will culminate with my settling at my 'holding weight' and bodyfat, with me looking lean and mean year round.
Once there I will assess what has happened on the muscle gain front and decide If I can step on stage in better shape than last time, if I can I will make the decision as to whether competing is something I want to do again, taking into account my history of after comp weight gain etc.

But for now it is full steam ahead again, getting back to my balanced nutrition, having had a few days of extra treats in the diet, which by the way, I'm fine with :))

Have a great week all, good to read about all those who's comp preps are starting to come together, keep blogging.

Shar x
'NO EXCUSES'

Wow, what a day!

Firstly, Thanks for the comments girlies.

I, Thanks to my husband, have had a quite relaxed weekend leading into my Les Mills Workshop presentation today.
I present Bodyvive and have been stressing a bit as the last two presentaions I have done on a saturday alongside the RPM workshops and they are held in Normal club environment but this quarter we were put back on the Sunday line up alongside all the other programmes and on what we call the main stage.
Anyway, all went well and the Bodyvive instructors that turned up were very into it and making lots of noise and were very responsive.
Bodyvive is 10!! Its still classed as a new programme and is developing every release we get.

Bodyattack was presented by Kylie Gates, those in the LM community will know her and two other guys, Phil and Steve. It was a great presentation and the release is absolutely awesome!!
I cannot wait to teach it!!

Other highlights, I get to cathc up with alot of my instructors and I had a brief chat with Sam!! yay! and I must say she is looking super duper and a very yummy mummy. Hope she comes to one of my classes soon and then we can catch up after.

Paul has had the kids all weekend as I had rehearsals, needed to prep etc, what a gem he is!! THANKS PAULIE!!

I am shattered tonight and can't wait to get to bed and sleep deep after a few nights of restless sleeping to say the least.

Looking forward to me run in the morning and am ready to continue my work towards my 'happy place'. Next goal,apart from continuing my running training for half marathon, is to have my legs 'Bodyattack kickshort ready' for the next Les Mills Quaterley. This is a tough ask but it will be done and pics will be posted............promise!

Have a great week guys, I'm off on Wednesday to the Fitness First annual conference in Sydney, for all heads of departments.

Shar x

Flying visit!!!

Thanks to Lia for dropping by and giving me the nudge, I didn't for one minute think anyone would notice I hadn't posted my self for a bit, its been nearly 3 weeks.

Now I really should not be doing this right now I have other stuff I have to do, but will do a quickie and be back int he next few days.

Anyway, normally for me when I drop of the face of the earth (blogger) things have all gone pear shape and I'm in a mess and just don't want to blog anything.

BUT I am happy to say that this time that is not true!!!!
I had an AH-HA moment (more about that in next post) about 6 weeks ago and have been flying ever since.
Food is my friend and is fuel to do the exercise I love, classes going well, the scales are my friend (not my best friend yet but we are growing closer!)

It all seems to be coming together and not for any other reason than I want to find a balance and be happy inside and out, no comp to 'diet' down for, just putting in the hard work to get to the place I have been aiming for so long.

Have updated my run training, loving it. Doubtful I will go for the full marathon at the moment but will hope to achieve the Half.

Anyway, things to do, kids to get to school, work to do, scripting to go over, long run to do..............A DAY TO LIVE!!!

health and happiness to you all
Shar x

My Big Boy and My Big Little Girl :)

Well today was quite a unsettling day for me and Paul. I spent all day worried about both of my babies.

Maddi started school full time today and Bryce started High school!! One at the start of each school.

Here's a pic, Maddi is such a poser, don't know where she gets it from :)

All was well and nothing to worry about. Maddi was shattered after a busy day and Bryce actually talked to us about his day!

All well with me, will update tomorrow.

Shar x